Monday, August 29, 2005

Today, I couldn’t stop thinking, and I couldn’t stop feeling. It got such that, my coworkers had to ask me to start closing because I lost track of time :P

I’m reading an excellent book called “Blue Like Jazz” by Donald Miller at work and sometimes outside of work, because it is so good! Though, I have to take it in pieces too, because it is real, it is applicable to my life and it gets at the roots of what Christians in our generation are experiencing. I find it is a helpful confession of an honest man which can help people find love and relationship with someone who loves them unconditionally and deeper than anyone else can. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS BOOK.
You know it’s a good book when it makes you to think and to feel and to apply things to your life. I feel like this guy totally gets what I have been struggling with as a Christian and he words it in ways that I have had trouble voicing myself. :)

Also today, had an interesting conversation with a fellow who has been flirting with me for the past week. He asked me out about 10 times today during our hour long conversation…lol, for some reason he ‘read’ my body language wrong and wouldn’t take no for an answer. I explained to him that I actually like people, and will talk with them equally, unless they start pushing the boundaries. I’m sorry if he read my signals wrong, but I’m not interested in dating, but, that doesn’t mean I will ignore you, I don’t mind chatting with you. This dear fellow and I had an interesting conversation that probably scared off any potential customers. For some reason, with guys who are so persistent, we seem to get on the topic of sex, and I tell them that I am not interested in casual sex, that it is much more to me than that and then they try to convince me otherwise, and I insist that it’s useless and laugh at them. I suppose that is harsh on them… but, they often don’t realize that I am laughing at them… Anyways, he tried to convince me that I should have sex for fun with a great guy that I am going steady with. I told him, you have no plans to get married anytime in the near future, which he nodded at. I told him I see relationships differently than you, I enjoy my platonic friendships, the man I have sex with will be a very special man who means a lot to me, and I’m SURE it will be lots of fun when the time comes, as for now, bye bye.
He encouraged me that when I find that man, I should go up to him and kiss him to let him know that I am interested because I do know how to flirt but, I don’t use it.
I found that rather humourous. Wouldn’t that make things so much easier if you could just go up to that person you like and just kiss him? And he would like it and he would be like, let’s date? Sounds nice, but seriously… I would want more than just a kiss, it’s a big deal to ask a person to love you and if it’s ok for you to love them too. But, this guy obviously wasn’t talking about love.
This guy also told me that sex was not about giving, but accepting. I told him straight out that I thought that was shallow. Sex is not just about getting.

It really makes me wonder at humanity. Before there was birth control, people couldn’t just go have sex for the heck of it because they thought the other person was hot. This still seems ridiculous to me. Men may not understand the implications, considering that they have less to worry about and are naturally dominant. Women on the other hand, have to suffer all the consequences, mentally, emotionally, physically, it affects their entire life!!! IT really pisses me off when men are so shallow, lol. But, that is just the way some people like to live their lives, c’est la vie.

Weeeell, dating really doesn’t appeal to me. I’m a friends first kind of girl and you know, I just can’t help it. There is no other way to get to me. A guy has to seriously treat me genuine, be real, and care to talk with me and not get scared away by what I say, Which sometimes can be far too realistic and at other times can be far too idealistic and sometimes, I can even sound like a complete ditz when I am completely not. So, they will just have to deal with that. :P lol A guy has to be creative, fun, genuine and intelligent to keep my attention and that is that. I can tell you there are guys out there like that, and I have and would hang out with them, but there aren’t many that I would consider dating seriously. It takes me awhile to decide that this is a guy I really REALLY like... It takes me awhile to make decisions… THIS is my undoing as well… but I am learning to have guts and take more chances and trust my intelligence and who I am, and you know what? It often works out amazingly well when I have some Faith in God that everything will be ok no matter the way it turns out. :)

And, I’m sure I could talk on and on today, but I won’t. Today I am SO ON CLOUD 9, I will just dance through the next week, I am sure :) This week is going to be a lot of working hard and partying hard with my girls :) YAY!

Have a good one :)

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

I don't know about you, but I don't like it when people hide the truth to save a person's feelings. People are often tougher than given credit for. Ignorance IS NOT bliss. It is TRUTH that will set you free. It is much more considerate of the person to be REAL with them. This shows genuine character.
What do you think?

Monday, August 22, 2005

My good friend Matty and his beautiful bride, Martha :) Congratulations with all my heart and with all my blessing :) Posted by Picasa
The Special Couple Praying for their Blessing :) Posted by Picasa
Me and my date Juan-Pierre  Posted by Picasa
Me and my gorgeous sisters :) Posted by Picasa
My beautiful sisters in Christ and I :) Posted by Picasa
Matty about to sing to his Love :)  Posted by Picasa
Beautiful Bride hearing her Husband sing to her Posted by Picasa
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Afterwards we spent some time together :) It is never enough these days! ;) Posted by Picasa

Friday, August 19, 2005

Psychological studies show that quite often, after a 'bad day' usually comes a good day! Such is the case with me.
Yesterday I was exhausted and stressed to the max. But, I slept a lot last night and today managed to arrange everything for the apartment arrangements to go through AND I totally spanked sales on the cart today! (With a little help, but my personal sales were good).

You know what is funny? The last few days I was doing really badly on sales, but everyone else seemed to be doing good! I was like "what is wrong with me? :(" I have done pretty well for myself so far at work, coming in at within the top 8 sales people in London at Peoples II for a couple weeks now and last week I did top sales on the cart overall. So, what's up with the last few days?

Well, I figured that these are the factors that were different than usual:
1. I changed my glasses to an old, yet new, pair. They are pretty stylin Ralph Lauren rims with very dark tourtous shell exterior and a pale blue that shines out from the rims. I have recieved compliments on them by my boss and coworkers and friends and family.
2. I was sick with a head cold
3. I wore my new 'light green' shoes, which i simply adore. My friend Abbie wears similar shoes to work, hers are backless, so I figured it wouldn't make me look too unprofessional, but I don't know, perhaps I can't pull off some casual styles as sophisticatedly as Abbie can :) She is so super amazingly cool. Seriously.

Today I wore my black shoes, I changed my glasses and my head cold started to go away and my sales went up amazingly! Circumstance? I wonder!!....
I think people don't like my glasses... I will have to do a study... One day wear the shoes, the next day wear the glasses etc. and rotate and gather statistics to see whether they aren't liking the shoes or the glasses or both... lol

FINALLY everything is set for the apartment! Now we can think about the fun things, like finding a couch and a kitchen table! Anyone have any that we could use? YAY! I can't wait to move in and get all cozy! Now i can relax a bit more and just look forward to it. Though I am still waiting to hear back about a job in Hamilton. I would appreciate your prayers about that. I really need a job this year!! OR I AM DEAD!

;) Luvs!
My adorable new green shoes :) (Read latest post) Posted by Picasa

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Can I Go Insane Now?

Busy busy busy, and I've gone and caught a head cold :P But, i'm still working away and doing driver's ed with my extremely flirtatious In-car instructor. He is being very nice in providing many lessons for me as often as possible so that I can be finished before September, but, he is also particularly flirtatious... I recognize that he is harmless, but after this I will be a pretty good driver with that kind of distraction.

Well, pray that I will have a job in Hamilton starting September for the year and that we have a nice place to live this September as well! Things are pretty stressful trying to make these arrangements solid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is on top of some other things that I will not list here.
But, thus is life and it has it's stressful moments but, also it's great moments and I have had some great times with friends this summer and I look forward to many more :)
One of my best friends from high school, Matty, is getting married this weekend!!! So, I am going and I am singing! So, that should really be something! I have NO IDEA WHAT I AM GOING TO WEAR! :P lol

Can't wait till the fall is here and I am moved into a place and I have a job and I'm going to school and seeing my friends in Hamilton again! :) Somehow that seems less stressful for some reason! lol
I guess we will see... this year will be full of change and growth for me and I am scared and excited at the same time. One thing I know though, is that I am entering into it (just like with my driving) mostly with confidence in myself, and I have faith that things will go well ;)

Ah gotta run! ;)

Saturday, August 13, 2005

YAY!!! We have finally found a place to live this year. It is in a GREAT location and for a pretty GREAT price! :D I am SO FREAKIN STOKED!! :D I can’t wait to move in with such awesome women and start classes! :) Yippee!

Well, the other day, I was at work, working that cart like never before, and I decide that I will call my driver’s instructor and set up our first appointment. :) So, I call him and he is like, “Oh, I am in the mall…” I told him that I was too! So, we had a humorous little search to find each other, and when we finally did, it was all smiles :) What a fun way to meet! Hehe.

Well, it is a race to the finish! I'm working as much as I can, have a wedding for one of my best friends from high school to go to, and I am singing at it now! lol I'm racing to get my driver's ed all in before I move, and to party lots with my London friends while I'm in London. Tonight is girls night on the town with some awesome girlfriends who I have not seen for so long! Should be a BLAST!
Catch ya later ;)

Friday, August 05, 2005

~The Song of Ungirt Runners~

We swing ungirded hips,
And lighten'd are our eyes,
The rain is on our lips,
We do not run for prize.

We know not whom we trust
Not whitherward we fare,
But we run because we must
Through the great wide air.

The waters of the seas
Are troubled as by storm.
The tempest strips the trees
And does not leave them warm.
Does the tearing tempest pause?
Do the tree-tops ask it why?
So we run without a cause
'Neath the big bare sky.

The rain is on our lips,
We do not run for prize.
But the storm the water whips
And the wave howls to the skies.
The winds arise and strike it
And scatter it like sand,
And we run because we like it
Through the broad bright land.

~Charles Hamilton Sorley
taken from: The Oxford Book of English Verse 1250-1918

Monday, August 01, 2005

Your dating personality profile:

Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Your date match profile:

Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things.
Your Top Ten Traits

1. Religious
2. Big-Hearted
3. Adventurous
4. Conservative
5. Romantic
6. Traditional
7. Athletic
8. Intellectual
9. Practical
10. Wealthy/Ambitious
Your Man Must Have These Match Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Practical
3. Adventurous
4. Religious
5. Romantic
6. Funny
7. Conservative
8. Traditional
9. Outgoing
10. Intellectual

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