Sunday, July 31, 2005
Friday, July 29, 2005
I don't know what to do....
I WANT to move back to Hamilton. Live with awesome women whom I adore. Take really amazing classes that I am looking forward to taking with professors that I really like... (Norman, you can't go!!!) and I LOVE SCHOOL!! Particularly in the Fall. IT is one of my favourite things and I already missed that last year! I want to be able to see my friends in Hamilton. I could work part time! (CATCH: Convincing my parents to sign line of credit... being in MORE debt...)
Stay home (save money), work full time (at the jewellery store and perhaps a music store too!! that would ROCK!), have more time and means to practice for and get my G licence (WHICH I REALLY WANT AND NEED). Hope that I don't go insane....
Other than that my interview went quite well, I'm an authenitc and likeable person and I like the people who work there :) That's gotta count for something :)
Went out with Jeff to the Embassy the other night to see Bear vs Shark. They were cool and Jeff had lots of fun moshing and hugging the lead singer and I had lots of fun watching him. Jeff, you're great. Had a FREAKIN BLAST. You spent too much money again,Jeff, but it was freakin fun. haha Also saw: Bleeding Kansas, Fall Before the Wall of Flames and I really liked Fire When Ready> They ROCKED!! Great drums, great guitar rifts :) Singer sounds a bit like Billy Talent/The Used/Mars Volta.
I would love working at a music store...and it would love me!!
mmm warm home made chocolate chip cookies...
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
I have managed to read The Four Loves by CS Lewis in the last few days of work. I LOVED it and I recommend everyone to read it! It was quite humbling and insightful :) An excellent description of human behaviours and incentives through different means of loving. I agreed with everything Prof. Lewis said, first hand! But, there was one part that I, personally, had qualms with, and really… It’s not like I could call up CS Lewis to chat about it. Though that would be cool if I could! And, I’m sure we would find that we agree with each other in the end, and he would settle my upset about that part, because really… he was quite a rational and intuitive man and probably quite agreeable… anyhoo…
I was able to read a good chunk into another book as well today :)
Hey, why is Tuesday such a good day to make money? I guess people are enjoying the weather or something on the weekends… and Mondays are always busy with something else, so Tuesdays are the days to go shopping I guess… (?) I’m really not so sure there is much rhyme or reason to sales except for how holidays cause people to spend…. People do seem to come around more when you look busy,… but reading can make me look busy too, because sometimes I get really into my book… hehe.
You meet some interesting people sitting in the middle of the mall. There’s the old man who comes by everyday with his rolling walker and an encouraging flirtatious word such as, “You look so good today! If I weren’t married I would be chasing you!” and the guy who stopped by the other day who seemed to only want to talk with me to watch my lips and get me to say “umbilical chord”… wow, he was random…sketchy…
I SO enjoy reading! I am reading many books right now:
-I just finished reading The Oxford Book of English Verse as well as CS. Lewis's The Four Loves
-Currently devouring Anne of the Island, which I have already read before but, I want to read the 4th one and this one was so good, I wanted to have it fresh in my brain for the next one.
-Snacking on: Little Women, Pride and Prejudice (Hope to read it before the new movie comes out with Keira Knightley in it), and (don’t laugh…) the Second Summer of the Sisterhood… lol I have yet to see the movie.
-Nibbling at: The Kingdom of Love –Hannah Hurnard, Desiring God: Meditations of a Christian Hedonist- John Piper
-Pending: The Secret Dreamworld of a Shopaholic –hmm… I should be into this book by now…no? and Feeding Your Appetites (which other than chocolate, books, sleep or coffee, I don’t have much of these days…but it is informative nonetheless)
I have many on the book list to pick up after these:
-Some more CS Lewis
-Perhaps some Dickens ;)
-Good Wives and Anne of Windy Poplars
-The Picture of Dorian Gray
-Pilgrim -Timothy Findley
-Blue Like Jazz
-Captain Corelli’s Mandolin (I liked the movie ;)
-Perhaps some of the books my co-workers may lend me like: Ayn Rand’s The Fountainhead or some old English Folklore. (I work with some truly amazing women ;) )
And, books are basically what are on my brain these days… lol
Off to see The Island tonight ;)
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Postcard from Italy
Santa Maria del Fiore in Florence, Italy stands out against the Tuscan landscape. IT is a Renaissance masterpiece, constructed by many different architects. One of the overseers of the construction of the church was the forefather of the Renaissance himself, Giotto. The beautiful Duomo was constructed by Fillipo Brunelleschi, one of the preliminary designers of pictorial perspective and an excellent goldsmith and architect. At the time the Duomo was an exceptional architectural advancement, being the first octagonal dome and the largest dome ever built. This Beauty is one that I must see one day! :)
It just so happens that, to my pleasure, I recently recieved a postcard with the lovely Santa Maria on the front from Jared who is travelling with good friends in Europe! And, I don't think he recognized that this is the one postcard I would have wanted from Italy, lol.
Postcards are kind of funny aren't they? They are almost teasing, saying "Look, I got to see this in real life, here is a little picture of the likeness of it but, it is nothing like the real thing..." Hehe. I suppose it is a token of sharing the special things one sees on their journeys though. ;)
One day I will make it to Italia...
Sunday, July 17, 2005
I was just outside dancing around in my backyard as the warm rain fell heavily down onto me and my dogs looked on with odd expressions on thier little faces :) My hair is all curly and wet and now I sit with a warm coffee in a sweater and slippers and enjoy the little while I have before I have to be off to work again...
What a way to wake up :)
Last night I was able to see my friend JOYANNE!! Who I haven't seen for years! Except for that one time where we went strawberry picking ;) And that was a couple years ago! She is working in LA for the summer!! :D I am so jealous and she keeps telling me that If I wanted to go to California, I would have a place to stay... sounds so tempting!! I WOULD DO IT!!! If only I had the money.... :(
Lynsey and I met Joy at Starbucks downtown and then headed to Folk Fest and it was lovely :)
(Eric, we saw you on stage moving around cables and such ;) Hope you enjoyed your volunteering!) I came across this one store that I fell in love with called: Tima Collection Co. Toronto, ON. Anyone want to go on a roadtrip to TORONTO with me!? :D PRETTY PLEASE!!?? After my first pay cheque...? :) They have the most gorgeous jewellery!!! I wish we sold that kind of jewellery at my work, than I would probably be more likely to want to buy it ;) I don't need silver or gold or diamonds... you should see this stuff, it's absolutely beautiful.
Joyful, IT WAS SOOO GREAT to be able to see you and catch up with you! You are gorgeous inside-out and I am so glad to still be in touch with you!! :D You are lovely! :)
I'm off to work ;)
Saturday, July 16, 2005
It does NOT feel like the weekend!
1. What was the last song you heard?
My Little Corner of the World -Yo La Tengo
2. What were the last two movies you saw?
2. The Maltese Falcon -an oldy with Humphrey Bogart ;)
1. hmmm... either Sense and Sensability, Maid in Manhattan or Under the Tuscan Sun
3. What were the last three things you purchased?
3. Helped split a couple pitchers of beer and nachos last night
2. Saw Bewitched and Mr. And Mrs. Smith at the drive-in!
1. A pretty ring from Sunfest!
4. What five things do you need to do this weekend?
4. Visit Folk Fest and get to visit with JOYANNE!!!
3. Find and practice the song I am going to sing Sun. July 31st
2. Call some friends and return some e-mails
1. hmmm... I don't know if i will have time for anything else, but if i do, I would like to read some of the books I am reading... there are many on the go at the moment!
5. Who are the last five people you talked to?
5. I said goodnight to my mom
4. And went over some paperwork with my dad
1. Keri or Hannah
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
You scored 21 despair, 50 relationship potential, 92 feelings, and 75 patience
DragonflyBlade21: A woman has a close male friend. This means that he is probably interested in her, which is why he hangs around so much. She sees him strictly as a friend. This always starts out with, you're a great guy, but I don't like you in that way. This is roughly the equivalent for the guy of going to a job interview and the company saying, You have a great resume, you have all the qualifications we are looking for, but we're not going to hire you. We will, however, use your resume as the basis for comparison for all other applicants. But, we're going to hire somebody who is far less qualified and is probably an alcoholic. And if he doesn't work out, we'll hire somebody else, but still not you. In fact, we will never hire you. But we will call you from time to time to complain about the person that we hired.
|Link: The Why Are You Single Test written by luminiscent on Ok Cupid|
Perfectionism… it is what is demanded of us at every turn, from job requirements, to school grades, to parental expectations and, … most notably these days, by those looking for their significant other.
What is it about our generation that has caused such specification? IT has driven people to do crazy and degenerative things. They get faced every day with how imperfect they are that they literally deteriorate from the inside out.
Have we just become more and more anal over the years? Have we set our expectations too high for ourselves and others?
It seems to me that once upon a time relationships used to last because people were just real with each other. Now we are full of fear, whether we immediately recognize it or not. We are all faced with anxiety that affects us: But, how are we responding to it? How are we using it? OR are we just becoming immobilized to fulfilling our real dreams by settling?
Through over perfectionism we lose reason and we become hypocrites, settling instead of striving for what we truly desire the most. In the mean time, we could be wasting away what could have been saved for something real.
Real does not mean perfect. It does not mean that there will not be flaws, that it will be easy and that there won’t be problems. Real means genuine, it means choice and it means self sacrifice and love. It means sticking to the plan and ultimately: being true to yourself, and to others.
What are you afraid of?
Where are you being overly perfectionistic?
What does that fear/over-perfectionism keep you from accomplishing?
I dare you to move.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
This past weekend was Sunfest in Victoria Park, London! It’s an annual celebration of multicultures! :D This year was AMAZING! :) The weather was PERFECT: Hot sun, nice breeze, no clouds in the sky.
Saturday I went with my sweet girl friend Lysney and we enjoyed the Jazz tent muchly. Here we saw Micheal Keashammer amoung other Jazz artists. He and his accompaniments were exceptionally talented, genuine, creative and fun! Check out his website!! Nora’s Boogie is one of his songs I really enjoyed! Michel Morissette was also a very fun Jazz master, he makes you want to dance ;)
Lynsey and I also enjoyed a group of about 16 drummers called the Samba Squad. They were amazing!! Most of you know how I love the drums and these beats made you want to move!! There was dancing in the street and it was so fun! :D We also had some thai food (one of my favs) and some fresh tropical lemonade/ice tea. Aside from seeing all the lovely things to buy, we also got Hennah tattoos! :) They are soooo fun, It’s addictive :)
Sunday I returned to Sunfest with my sister Katey and fellow friend Eric ;) We also enjoyed the jazz :) And a perfect day to do so as well. We were privileged with Sophie Milman and her talented band play. She was AMAZING and I encourage you to check her out as well if you like some good jazz :) Such talent!! I would love to do what she does! She is just like the sexy sophisticated lounge singers of old but with modern class. ;) True to the Jazzy lady legends she is. ;) She was a real hit with everyone at the Fest.
Sp, we continued to browse around, enjoying the sun, mango gelato and the scent of incense and hennah in the air. I bought a very cool ring and could have indulged in buying so much more if I was left with money and time to ;) So much beautiful jewellery and materials and clothes and carvings....
It was like heaven!!! Except for the Styrofoam that some of the food came in. ;)
If you are free next weekend, the FOLK FEST will be in town, so come on down and enjoy some great live music, and indulge in the festivities! :D I know I will be!
Thursday, July 07, 2005
*The smell of old books
*Warm oatmeal muffins
*Birds gorging on berries and singing away
*Cuddling with puppies
*Sipping green tea or good coffee
*The smell in the air after a rain
*Sitting outside and listening to the approaching thunder and the breeze through the trees
*Watch a puppy chasing a bug
*Eating raspberries off the bush
*Flying in an airplane
*Watching a dog sit with his ears back and his nose wiggling as they enjoy the day
*Books by excellent writers
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
“God would be unrighteous (just as we would) if he valued anything more than what is supremely valuable. But he himself is supremely valuable. If he did not take infinite delight in the worth of his own glory, he would be unrighteous. For it is right to take delight in a person in the proportion to the excellence of that person’s glory.”
Isn’t is awesome and wonderful to have a God that is righteous in delighting fully in Himself and His own Glory!?!! We cannot do this righteously ourselves past the degree to what is worthy of ourselves, we always fall short to the glory of God.
When I find myself being there for other people, being strength and support for them, I sometimes worry that I am not worthy for that role: I don’t have the strength to always support them or myself, who am I to talk when I struggle just as they do? I sometimes get to the point where I feel I don’t have much to offer them at the moment or I have no idea what I could do to help them. I want to be someone people can rely on, who can be a strong shoulder to support them, a patiently and attentively listening ear, being gentle, wise and encouraging in the things I say. I don’t want to come across self-righteous, I can’t because then this would not be serving to the one I am helping. But, I don’t need to worry about that, because, particularly in the profession I am pursuing, I will always find myself needing something to draw strength from, for myself and for others. I can’t be God, I can’t even pretend to be by trying to save people from their problems or themselves. What I can do, is be real with them, be there with them, recognize the condition of humanity and pray for them. God is the ultimate Savior. Personally, I couldn't even think of persuing this profession solely on my own strength! I would definitely go crazy and burn out :P lol
Thank God that He is ultimate in strength, true rest and peace, real joy and wisdom! Thank God that He is fully confident in Himself! Particularly when we struggle with confidence for ourselves! (even then He is confident in us! Amazing!) He has no flaws to make up for, we CAN rely on Him and He is fully worthy of our praise.
Thank God for giving us what is most perfect and good: Himself! We praise so many things every day (those of you who know me, can attest to how I am quite often a walking advertisement of the world, lol) we can make some time to praise the One who deserves it most!
“We praise what we enjoy because the delight is incomplete until it is expressed in praise. If we were not allowed to speak of what we value and celebrate what we love and praise what we admire, our joy would not be full. So if God loves us enough to make our joy full – He must not only give us Himself; He must also win from us the praise of our hearts - not because He needs to shore up some weakness in himself, but because he loves us and seeks the fullness of our joy that can be found only in knowing and praising Him, the most magnificent of all Beings.”
-John Piper “Desiring God- Meditations of a Christian Hedonist”
Through Christ we have significant worth, and when we humbly see how much God loves each of our unique selves and desires us, it can give us strength for others :) God blesses those who seek to do His will, and knowing ourselves through His eyes will help us find purpose :) Know how loved you are ;)
Luvs, JEN! :D